Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Baby Brain

I guess I should start with a brief introduction. I am Miranda. I am 25 years old and expecting my first (and only, if everything goes according to my plans) child this April. I was not one of those people who wanted to be surprised by the sex. I wanted to know as soon as the doctor could tell. I found out at twenty-one weeks that I was having a girl. To be honest, I was a little disappointed at first. I always wanted a baby boy although I am not sure why. My disappointment faded fast though. Now, at 28 weeks, I could not imagine it turning out any better. At Christmas time, I was buying gifts for my boyfriend's brother and sister. They both had lists of stuff they wanted. On Katy's list(the sister), there was stuff like craft supplies and cutsie knee socks. On Andrew's list (the brother), there was x-box games and extra controllers; both of which are EXPENSIVE. At that point, I thanked God I was having a girl. Not to say girls are less expensive but, being a girl myself, I have learned how to lessen the blow of "girl" expenses. I am clueless about boys.
All of you mother's out there probably know this well, but now that I am having a baby, it is all I can think of. Every conversation I have turns into baby talk. Every thought, no matter what it is about, turns into thinking about the baby. Even the shows I watch on television somehow turns my head into nothing but baby thoughts. Everything I do know is gearing up for the baby's arrival. I suppose this is the way it is supposed to be and it will be that way for the rest of my life except the word baby will change to toddler, then pre-teen, then teenager and so on.
I have been very lucky in that I have, for the most part, not had any problems with the pregnancy. The biggest problem I have ran across is naming my baby girl. Who knew it would be so hard. I, like most girls I know, named my children when I had my first real boyfriend. It was easy then because it was pretend. Now that it is for real, it has turned into a big stress spot. Also, I only made it worse. Let me explain. My boyfriend and the father of my baby is named Bill. When we first found out about the baby, I said casually, "Wouldn't it be cute if it was a girl and we named her Billie after her daddy?" Then we found out it was a girl, and everyone in his family remembered that comment. They all love the idea. Now it is like I have no say so. I guess it is cute but I am not crazy about it. I always wanted something more girlie and abstract. Plus, I can not find a middle name that seems to flow with Billie. Any ideas? And please don't say Jean. I just don't want my little girl to hate her name and be mad at me for giving it to her. On a positive point, I don't know many girls with that name.
No matter what her name turns out to be or the way anything else works out, I am so excited to have a baby girl of my very own on the way.

Monday, January 19, 2009

This is a test!

Testing Testing 1 2 3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!